Choices, choices

Be as wise as a serpent, and as innocent as a dove.
Do not trade what you really want for what you merely want at the moment.
Lean not on your own understanding...

I hate making decisions. I also hate it when people make them for me. ;-) When they seem to just be serendipitous, then i'm okay. Tomorrow i'll either have to make a decision: to accept or not to accept a job; or i'll find out that the decision doesn't exist because they don't like my salary request.

I hate making decisions.

This isn't a direct career choice. It fell in my lap, because a colleague told them i could do what they need done. I can--i'm qualified by experience, by training, by my knowledge of the terrain, working relationships with key players, and because i know how to learn whatever else i need to know. It's in the environmental field, but it isn't very creative. It would last about four years, and give me a foot into a good company or a good stepping-stone back into government work: that's a lot more than the temporary student positions i've been finding in my direct field. It's here in SoCal, so i don't have to leave my community (where i love walking to the coffee shop and bookstore) or my friends the way the government student jobs require. It would be more money than i have ever earned before--and benefits!!! (about time!!!). But will i be happy?

I think so: i think, even if the work is a little tedious, i'll enjoy plotting invasive plant removal tactics. I'll enjoy being outside in my beautiful San Gabriels. I'll enjoy leading a crew of workers, and i even kinda get a sick pleasure out of organizing files, photos, and reports. I think i'll have enough energy left to complete landscape architecture projects on the side. The other concern is working enough LA hours to be able to take the licensing exam...but...

well, i'll find out tomorrow if these concerns are moot!