A normal life, or, I have slept too much this week

Doing some research today, i came across this quote by Albert Camus:

"Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal."

Ah. Maybe that's why i am tired? ;-)

Nah. If only it was that easy. I am tired because i am silly and trying to work while going to school in a program for which i was forewarned that people who try to work usually don't make it through the three years, that there have been divorces, that sometimes you just need to cry to your classmates who will understand. Work and have a life. What was i thinking? I'm slowly cutting out the life, but i am very reluctant to cut out work. One of my profs just paid off his credit card debt from grad school--i don't want that! Besides the (very nice) money, i love my job and i enjoy my older adult students very much. But i don't want to be a busy person, nor a workaholic, nor live like i believe in salvation through works instead of grace...

I'm not as tired as i should be. One project was due yesterday but our prof postponed it until next week, very clearly saying "it's not because I feel sorry for you!". (Sure it isn't--we were falling asleep or looking at him glassy-eyed from the project we'd turned in at 8:30 that morning and i have only teaching IGCSE Geography getting me through contour grading). Anyway, that reprieve somehow messed up my stress-level-motivation index, and i'm now feeling quite lahteedah about the whole thing. Focus, focus, stay up, read! Draw those sketches! Three weeks to go!